Our baby’s due date is March 13. For some reason I thought that at the beginning of January I had 3 months before baby comes. 3 more months to work, 3 more months to get this baby blanket and booties done.
Today we went in for what seemed like the fastest ultrasound we have had this pregnancy. And then we talked about the schedule for my c-section. March 5th. That’s only 2 months away. How did I lose a month? I guess I never had it in the first place. I just miscalculated. So now I have one less month to get ready for baby’s arrival. And in reality, we probably need to be ready with the bare basics now just in case I end up in preterm labour. I have a bit of anxiety over this one less month of prep time.
Maybe it is partially my need to control everything. I remember I was basically the same last pregnancy too. I think the nesting instinct is stronger this time around because once we have this baby I won’t have time to organize all her baby clothes. I won’t have time to adjust Addison to her big girl room. I keep thinking that if I can have as much prepared now then the tough part will be just a little less tough. But I know too that this is probably as good a time as any to learn to let things go, to not take on so much. But how do you just turn that off?
This New Years resolution is going to be harder than I thought.